It’s been more than a year since I started decluttering my life. The reason why I didn’t blog last month was because so many things were happening. Any free time I had, I just wanted to space out.
Today I’m recycling a t-shirt I got when I bungy jumped in NZ in my late 20s. It was terrifying and I wouldn’t do it again. I guess I kept the t-shirt to prove to the world I’m brave. My quiet personality is at odds with this. But now, I don’t care about proving anything.
I also threw away all the clothes I’ve held dear for the past 3 decades.
Yesterday I threw a t-shirt from Club Med. I bought 2 of them. I gave the other one to the love of my life then. I was in my late 20s. I guess I kept this tee even though I don’t use it to remind me of him. But I’m done with that. Trying to hold on to memories. What’s the point. It only makes me sad.
On 29th April, I recycled my O +M t-shirt from the days when I worked there. It was the best time in my career. Interestingly, it was also the the 1st 2 years of my career. On 28th, I recycled my Leo Burnett t-shirt. I had a great time there too but O + M is like your 1st love. You never quite forget it.
On 26 -27th April, I recycled a Victoria’s Secret lingerie – my 1st and only. And a smart (unlike my style) Anne Klein shirt I bought because I went into PR for a while. It was the best PR firm in Singapore but it was a Mistake. The stint in PR totally demoralised me.
On 24-25th April, I recycled 2 hand drawn t-shirts. The one on the left was from an art director I worked closely with. Who was incredibly supportive and funny. She lives in Canada now and I wish her the best. Though I apologise for throwing her t-shirt. I just want a fresh start. The t-shirt on the right is from my niece who has since passed. She was one of the sweetest people I know.
From 16 – 23 April, I recycled 8 books- comic speeches, English-Chinese dictionary, the Handy weather answer book,Mathematics, Bartlett designs, 2 ‘Magic eye’ books and a book on Print.
From 7 – 15th April, I threw away 9 kids’ socks.
From 3 – 6th April, I recycled 4 books- Road atlas of Great Britain, 2 geography books and European stamp design.
2nd April was my mediation session. It lasted 21 hours. I recycled my wedding dress. It was a short dress as opposed to a long dress because we were riding on a bike. It seemed so cool then. We were daring, different. None of that matters now. Also it wasn’t an off the counter wedding dress because those were too fussy. I wanted something simple. Everything about my wedding was simple. No bridesmaids. No church wedding. Just a small tea ceremony and a dinner just for family.
On April fools day, I threw away expired pills. They were meant to calm me, help me sleep.
From 16th to 31st March, I threw away 16 paint brushes.
From 3rd to 15th March, I threw away a bag of file separators, a clipboard, 5 bags, a plastic file, a comic, a notebook, 2 sink plugs and a passport cover.
From 21 Feb to 2nd March, I recycled a box, 2 clocks, a bag of 5 stones, a water bottle, 3 necklaces and a ring
From 13 to 20 Feb, I recycled 6 of his pants and 2 of his shirts.
Today my daughter asked me how I feel. She was amazed I could ‘throw’ away so many things. I’m not sure how I feel. I always knew I could. So much baggage in my life. In fact, I want to throw more. I want to get rid of more. I don’t feel light yet. I will stop once I feel light.